The Resolution Deception

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Current Weight: 220(ish) lb

It has been three months since I have posted anything on here. The truth is, that I gained a whole lot of weight (5 or so pounds) and was afraid to come back on here until I, at the very least, broke even. Then, I did reach my original weight and lost even more. Then the holidays kicked off. That's when I realized the odd thing about resolutions: the whole "I want to lose X pounds by the next year" is not only cliche but an excuse for not thinking up a better resolution.

Losing weight as a resolution is more like a reaction to all the food that we stuff ourselves with over the holiday season. Halloween candy,Thanksgiving turkey, and Christmas cookies are just padded weight and not to mention a collective, tangible manifestation of our guilt over pigging out when we've been raised to believe that it's the season of giving.... Sorry I got all "college" just then.

The bottom line is, my goal to get back to 180 pounds has not changed, but I will not alter it into a New Year's Resolution, as that is just another set up for failure. Putting a hard time limit will just stress me out. I have got to go at my own pace if I expect to get to that "ideal weight" whilst maintaining my sanity.

Now that I got yet another rant out of my system let's take a look back at the year. Since I've started on this kooky experiment, I have lost a net amount of 18+ pounds. Hooray for me! And what makes this so different is the fact that I'm doing it on my own terms. I turned on the T.V. the other day and saw all the weird "reality" shows that emphasize the so-called "ideal" body. Seriously, how frakking stupid is the idea of one body type?

If you want to lose weight, you should do it because you want to be a healthier person. Or at the very least, lose the weight because you yourself would like to lose the weight. You can't shed the pounds for someone else otherwise it all comes back with a vengeance... and with a whole lot of other pounds. I suppose that's why I've been successful thus far. Firs and foremost, I learned to be comfortable in my own skin. And then, I decided it would be in my best interest to change my eating habits. That way if whoever I was trying to impress loses interest, I don't gain the weight back since I'm doing it for my own personal pleasure.

So with that being said, this will be my final blog for the year 2009. (But not for the decade as the true beginning of the millennium was in 2001 and not 2000... Sorry for the extra rant) Have a Happy New Year and cherish the one day that it is appropriate to celebrate the dropping of balls.